once again

i'm left with a thousand and one questions.
should have seen the signs, should have listened.
but how can you disregard what your heart tells you?
it was only a matter of time.
who was i fooling? apparently no one, not even myself.
i just things would have been different all around.
it's always the same.
but i won't make another mistake, i can promise that.
there is no way i can let anyone in again.
no way.
it's exhausting and i feel drained once again.
you are all the same.

same ol' same ol'

this weekend was very uneventful.

friday was the 'this is hell' show in bloomington.
good time, good music.
it was nice to see some people i hadn't seen in a while.

i was very excited about saturday, until plans fell through.
we were all supposed to go to south bend for punish fuck and sow to play.
apparently there was a crazy storm, so they cancelled.
we ended up eating pizza in fountain square.
was actually really good.
then went back to the 1511 for some fun amd drinks.

sunday was extremely boring.
went to my families house for dinner, like always.

i am hoping tonight turns out to be alot more fun than i am anticipating it to be.
i suppose we will see.

just another...

one to be fooled.
i guess it had to happen eventually?
sometimes i don't know why i still even try.
it seems to be all a waste.

i give up.